Have a little faith

So earlier today I was having one of those moments that we all have. A moment of doubt. Pure doubt. I knew going into the adoption process that it would be extremely difficult. I knew that it would be a roller coaster of emotions. I knew that there were so many unknowns. But I also knew that at the end there would be a precious little baby for us to love on. What I didn't really focus on was the financial aspect of it. I knew... I knew that somehow it would fall into place. I didn't want to not do adoption just because the financial aspect scared me. So I jumped in. Whole-heartedly. But today, I felt doubt. I was researching different adoption agencies, looking at blogs by families who have adopted or are in the process, and listening to music and I just completely broke down. I looked on our fundraiser page and saw that we were at $205.00 and my heart broke. I was extremely happy that we reached that number but knew that if we were going to submit our application then we would need to have $500.00.

God knew. God knew that I was in doubt. Because somehow my nana touched my mom and she reminded my mom of her love for us and my mom donated in memory of my nana. The two women who raised me for most of my life are once again raising me up and reminding me to have a little faith. I know that when times get tough and I want to give up it is always my mom who is there for me. What I forgot, was that this applies in all cases. My mom had no idea that I was filled with doubt today and yet, somehow she felt that she should donate to our adoption fundraiser in memory of my nana.

So everyone, have a little faith :)